Happy Days

i'm really happy the way my life has been going to past couple of years....i found the love of my life and we will be together 5 years on July 2...it's been a rocky road...but we've survived it and are pretty much heading in the right direction...he has even given me a beautiful promise ring (not an engagement ring, so no celebrating just quite yet) and we're utterly devoted to each other....

we can make each other laugh so easily...that it's really hard to stay mad or upset at each other....i mean seriously?...how can you stay grumpy and mad at someone when all you can do is smile when you see them....no matter how mad you are???  that's how me and J are...and it's wonderful....

i look back on this blog about how depressed and hopelessly available i was before i met J....and i can see that i'm not the same person i was a few years ago...i'm better....

i still get depressed once in a while...no matter how happy i get...i really don't think that's going to go away on it's own...i used to think that i was depressed because i didn't have anyone...but now that i have J, the depression is still there, just smaller...it just goes to show that no one in this world can make you happy than yourself...it's soooo true....

so if you are lonely and feel that there is just no one out there for...just think about it...looking at the state you are in, would you want YOU???....if you don't even want to be with you, how can you expect anyone else to want to be with you too???

i seriously did not find J until i finally came to the realization that i'm ok being by myself and let go of the past...as soon as i did that, J popped up....and you can have the same thing too....

it's not just about finding the right person...it's being the right person....

i'm happy :)