do you believe in ghosts???

i've asked this question to myself over and over again.....

and with tv shows and movies coming out like "the ghost whisperer" and "the exorsism of emily rose"......

and not to mention "all hallows eve" coming up.....

i pondered at the question......"do i believe in ghosts???"

i guess what i have to decide first is......what is a ghost???......is it an apparition of some sort???......is it a spirit of a person who has died???......are ghost lower class demons disgusing themselves as dead relatives to set us astray???......or is it a change in the surrounding electormagnetic field that messes with our minds and makes us hallucinate, to makes us believe we "feel" a presence or "see" something no one else can see???

and to after all this defining and what not......spirits that haven't crossed over due to unfinished business or demons working against the greater good.......

i still find myself undecided......

i mean......i can sense a presence around me.......even as i type this blog.....like someone is behind me.....breathing down my neck......i "feel" there is a presence or more than one presence at the foot of my bed just before i sleep......watching me......

but i've felt it that way for as long as i can remember.....

i've had things fall unexplainably (*chuckles* is that even a word?) off of walls in my room......i've had a door open all by itself......i've even had a drawer in my dresser pull out and crash to the floor......

and there are only three instances that i remember "seeing" something that wasn't really there.......

i can't remember exactly when the first one instance occurred.....but i remember feeling a presence in our basement.......but i was the only one down there.......and i still feel it......sometimes.......and i just sing a church hymn to myself.......but this one time.......i felt alarmed......and that i needed to get out of the basement.......so i climb the stairs......and we have a case of about 25 - 30 steps.......and the light of the stairwell started to fall behind me casting my shadow on the steps in front of me and eventually the back door at the top of the stairs.......and i remember looking at my shadow on the door.......and over my right shoulder......the shadow grew......as if someone......something was behind me.......and my shadow on the door looked as if i had grown another head.......

another instance happened when i was leaving for the airport at 3 in the morning.......i got into my truck......(i had a truck at the time)......and i looked in my rearview mirror as i put my truck into reverse and i saw a man standing there......behind my truck at the end of the bed......i glimpsed him in the mirror for not even a second but i remember that he was old.....weathered face......wearing a brown coat, cream buttoned collar shirt and a brown worn out cowboy hat......i quickly turned my head around and to see who it was.......but he was gone......i checked the mirror again.......and there was nothing.......

the third happened earlier this year......when i was driving on a dark and secluded road.....a road that i've traveled on many times at night......i felt a presence in my car.......like something was in the backseat......but i was the only one in the car......i kept looking in the rearview mirror......and kept turning my head to look......but there was nothing......

i got to my destination......and could see my cousin through the windows at her work walking with a girl who had light brown curly hair and wearing a red sweater......and i watched my cousin walk with the girl all the way to the door.....but my cousin came outside by herself.....

when my cousin got to the car, i asked her who she was walking with......and she said she wasn't walking with anyone......and i told her what i saw and described the girl to her......and she had no idea who i was talking about......

and when we were driving away......the presence in the backseat was gone......and i didn't feel so alarmed.......

the next day, my brother was sitting in the back seat and he asked me who was sitting back there.....and i told him nobody was......then he said there was a burn mark on the back of my seat that looked like three fingers......like a hand was reaching for me from behind my seat.....and this was BURNED into my seat.....and it's still there to this day......

there has been other times......where i would see something that wasn't really there.....sense a presence......and two questions always come into my mind......

do i really see ghosts???

or is my mind playing tricks on me???

i have a pretty vivid imagination......and sometimes i wonder if it's just me......or if there are spirits around me......

i've felt a presence behind me this whole time i've been typing......but i don't feel alarmed......there are times when i do feel alarmed and i start to sing a hymn to calm me......

and even after all this......i'm still undecided if i believe in ghosts or not......just because of my imagination and state of mind......i can't help but wonder if i'm just making myself feel these things......or if it's really something else.......