so i'm dying.....

ok....not really....but it sure feels like it.....

it seems my infamous tooth has formed an infection that has spread to my lower jaw......so my jaw is really sore under my chin.....in fact, if i push up in my chin, right under my jaw......it kills.....and yeah.....yeah.....if it hurts, don't touch it.....shut up, i know......but even if i DON'T touch it......it still kills.....

and i know, know......WHY haven't i gone to the dentist????.....because you know why????......doctors scare the crap out of me......and trust me.....doctors don't like crap on their office floor.....(yeah, nothing wrong with my sense of humor)

and cory's a little disappointed with me because we made a deal last week that i would go......and TECHNICALLY i haven't broke it.....cos i never said WHEN......i just promised i WOULD......which is going to happen, hopefully sometime this week if i can get an appointment......

yeah.....so hopefully the dentist can give me good drugs......

and i've also been thinking about re-doing my tongue piercing......since it's off center......i know i have to take it out when i go to the dentist......and if it happens to close up.....i'll just get it re-done......last time i went, i was in the chair a little over and hour for cleaning and sealants and my piercing already started to close and i had to push my barbell through......i figure if that happens again, i'll just let it close and re-do it......

another thing that's killing me was my kidneys (i think).......i had this sharp pain in my lower back off to the left where it hurt to even breathe......i sat through the pain for about an hour and then it went away......or maybe it's still hurting and now i'm used to the pain......i dunno.....but it was a pain that i've never experienced before......

i'm falling apart......grrrrr

also on saturday i watch Pirates of the Caribbean Part 2......it was alright.....johnny depp was totally hot......and was great......kiera knightly???.....not so great......she bugged me.....and i hate hate hate having to wait for Pirates 3 to come out.....grrr.....but i guess i have to......arg

and today at work......cory made my day so much more bareable......he made me laugh out loud.....and it was great that he was IM'ing me on my MSN.......it made me feel good that he did that......it helped with my "cory withdrawls"......i dunno.....i like to know he's thinking about me an stuff......it makes me feel special.....and YES i know the words of foamy....."you don't have to validate yourself through another person's life" (dating advice)......but it FEELS good to know someone's thinking good thoughts about you......so shut it......

so other than dying or thoughts there of......

i'm good

arg...arg...arg...

as much as i love my job.....there are times when i just wanna just SCREAM in the office.....