March 02, 2005

sex vs making love

alright.......

what's up with this????? i tell my tickle friends that i'm going to fort lauderdale to see my flight crew and *maybe* meet up with luis......and what's the first thing they say??????

"you better not sleep with him"

then my friend bryan, who called me yesterday who is also from tickle, and i tell him i'm going to drive up to idaho to visit david.......the first thing he says is......

"you're going to fuck him aren't you?"

then i call david and tell him my plans that i *might* actually be going to fort lauderdale with bryan cos he wants me to go with him and stay on the beach......the first thing HE says is.......

"you guys are going to do IT aren't you?????"

WTF?!?!?!?!?.......first of all......i don't go sleeping with everyone i meet online.......i NOT a hoe.......c'mon people.......second, i wouldn't think that luis, bryan or david would wanna sleep with me cos we're all FRIENDS.......david for the most part has changed and pre-marital sex is not an option for him any more.......and luis and bryan?????......i'm MOST LIKELY not their type.......and thirdly (is there really a word "thirdly"??? - cos that didn't sound right, but anyway) i've made a commitment to myself that the next time i decide to "do it", it will be with someone, it will be for love......

true......everyone is just joking about the whole "doing it" with everyone and stuff like that......but why does it have to be the FIRST thing out of their mouths????.......YOU HORNDOGS!!!!!!.......GET YER MIND OF THE GUTTERS........

remember people.......i went to ohio and didn't sleep with anyone there.......ya jerks :Þ

anyway from where i stand......i'm soooooo tired of having sex.......i wanna make love......and contrary to common belief, i can say no.......i can be a tease about it......ya know, makin out, having the guy cop a feel of my boobs......but waist down is off limits......i've actually told hugga-bug a funny story about that.......

and true, i can be a horny bitch (my mind in the gutter most of the time)......but i'm not a skanky bitch......

anyway, in closing......i'm here to say......yeah, i'm horny sometimes......but that doesn't mean i'm going to act on it every chance i get.......guys and girls CAN JUST BE FRIENDS WITHOUT THE ACKWARDNESS OF SEX......well, at least MY guy friends don't have to worry about that (hehe, for now - WEG - j/k - but seriously - i mean friends can become more than friends and i would be open to that - but i don't have any prospects right now).....

and if i DO decide to change my mind and play with everyone's one eyed snake.......i may or may not deny it when asked......