May 06, 2006

have you ever????

have you ever felt like nothing you do is ever good enough???

that no one sees you???

no one cares.....that YOU care???

have you ever thought that maybe you should just give up???

give in???

stop trying???

only because nothing you do is ever good enough???

have you ever wanted to give up, but because you are the way you are, decided not too, but people have given up on you???

you ask yourself, "what's the point?"......no one cares what i'm doing here....no one cares that *I* feel this way.....no one cares that i'm here......

you ask yourself, "why do *I* care so much???"......"why do *I* feel this much???"

or you feel that karma is taking too long???

or that it must be running it's course RIGHT NOW???

for all the bad things i've done, i'm paying for it now.....

and it's going to take a while for all the "good" i've done to kick in???

have you ever felt unimportant???

under appreciated???

have you ever felt that you are always "there" for people, but they don't care that you're there or are never there when you need them???

have you ever felt that no matter what you do, you'll never make a difference in someone's life, or BE the difference in someone's life???

have you ever had a really, REALLY good day, but no one cares to hear about it???

have you ever had a really, REALLY bad day, but no one cares to hear about it???

have you ever been really excited about something or depressed about something and you have no one there to share the moment with or even care???

do you feel truly ALONE in life, like no one will ever understand you???

or that people are changing all around you....your family....your friends....and you feel like you're stuck in a rut???

have you ever felt that you have a magnet for people only out there to hurt you???

have you ever felt that if you "disappeared" for a few days, that no one would even notice, much less cared???

have you ever wished to change your life so dramitically, that it wouldn't be "your" life anymore, but someone else's???

have you ever wondered how it feels to be missed???

have you ever wondered how it feels to be thought of from time to time???

have you ever felt like no one cares???

*heavy sigh*