The Order of Things

so yeah.....i've been talking a lot about the baby stuff.....

but i haven't mentioned anything about the whole marriage stuff.....

i guess i've been thinking things out of order.....lol

but yes, i want the wedding.....i want the dress.....i want it all.....

and my boyfriend is frustrating in this area as well....

he's stated on 3 occassions that perhaps he would like to marry me:

-once he said, "You know this time next year, we'll probably be married"
-another time we were talking and he said "I know exactly how I want to propose to you. It might make you mad because it won't be a great story to tell your friends but I've has this idea since I was young.
-and then another time i left the stove on in my apartment and he told me "I hope you don't do that when we're married."

And now....NOW his pulling this whole, "i'm never getting married"......"i don't want to get married"......"marriage sucks" crap.....

what did i do???

he showed signs that he wanted to get married.....and now he doesn't.....

it's frustrating and confusing.....

if he doesn't want to get married, i wish he would not tease me about it.....

he's planted that seed in my head, it grew a bit.....but with all this "never-getting-married" issue.....it's been trampled back into the ground......

*sigh*

from memory, forgive mistakes, but this just popped into my head

[sigh no more, ladies sigh no more
men were deceivers ever
one foot in sea and one on shore
to one thing, constant never
so sign not so, but let them go
and be you blithe and bonny
converting all, your sounds of woe
into hey, nonny, nonny!]

my dream dress.....if it ever happens......