Hopelessly Available

well that's what bryan calls it.....that we are both "hopelessly available"....after me ranting about my younger cousin getting engaged on sunday.....i mean, i'm sooo very happy for her.....but dude....my YOUNGER cousin.....she's my first girl cousin to get married (wedding is set for october) .....her fiance's a lucky man to have her....and she deserves the best......but still YOUNGER cousin.....(eh, i feel like an old maid) i was also telling him how i went window shopping with the girls for a wedding dress for ashlee.....and how depressing that was that i felt so "le sigh-ish".....then he concurs with his own statement that all of his friends are married, have girlfriends or have girlfriends that are pregnant.....

hopelessly available.....*le sigh*

anyway.....a couple of weekends ago, i was in san francisco for sales congress.....and i had fun.....i was randomly given a suite.....so you know what that meant.....PARTY IN RO'S ROOM!!!!....lol....and it was good.....didn't get out of hand or anything....but we had a good time.....this was also the first time i rode a cable car and seen the golden gate bridge.....although i've been to san francisco.....this was new to me.....i also got to go to the aquarium, take a bay cruise and eat at THE CRABHOUSE.....

so back to wedding stuff....with the preparation for my cousin's wedding.....i decided to look at some wedding dresses.....and i found my perfect wedding dress.....now i just need a husband.....or how bout we start with a boyfriend huh???.....and i've been looking at all this wedding stuff.....and dammit.....why must it taunt me!?!?!?....all the models in wedding dresses are laughing at me and telling me i'll never get there.....jerks.....grrrrrr

and bryan isn't having a great time either.....he got stood up twice by some bitch.....and she has the most stupid excuses.....i don't want to go into details, but bryan has a VALID reason to be upset.....i just wanna kick her ass.....she tells her sister that since bryan isn't her boyfriend, she can pull that crap.....um, hello???.....it's called bein'-fuckin-courteous you fuckin skank ass bitch.....if you have plans with someone, don't look for stuff to do with other people and then break your previou plans last minute.....she's a fuckin douche and i hope bryan realizes that he doesn't need to put up with her shit.....

anyway.....yeah.....hopelessly available.....it sucks.....especially when it seems like EVERYONE has SOMEONE and you don't.....

the universe hates me.....