Types

i have just come to the conclusion that i don't meet the criteria of most men......i'm not their "type".......personality wise i'm perfect......but physically......i'm off the mark.......i'm too tall.....too big......too brown......whatever......but guys love my sense of humor.......they love my compassion......they love my wit......they just can't look at me......

and i've come to the conclusion that them guys are just not worth it......

people like that......who are looking for the "perfect" person......who are looking for their "trophy" companion......i imagine will be happy for a while......but then what????......what happens when you find out that the beautiful person you're with, can't make you laugh????......or can't carry an intelligent conversation????

i can't say i'm totally innocent when it comes to the physical vs the personality aspect......yeah, when guys look good, i do a double take......but i've come to find out, that i'm just wasting my time......because i don't even qualify......i don't meet their "list".......

which brings me to another road......first impressions.......a guy looks at me......i'm too tall, big, brown......whatever.......i'm shot down before i say a word......most guys don't take the time to get to know me......but when they do.......they find that i'm perfect for them......but not physically.......i'm not the trophy girlfriend they wanna bring home to mother.......

so what do i do????.......

am i just destined to be alone unless i change????......

should i TRY i meet more of the criteria that are on men's "lists"????.......

am i basically supposed to be different from who i am, pretend to be something other than what i am, to validate myself, to make myself worthy of "the list"????