*Pheonix*

take my mind off of me
and focus on a bigger picture
because alone with my thoughts
darkness comes
a loneliness occurs and self pity
i want to break down and cry
but i cannot shed any tears
i want to sleep for ages
and wake up to a different world
a different life
a new life
a life filled with love
not loneliness and darkness
i don’t want to die
but i don’t want to live
send this life to the grave and
rise with new life
this is my desire
to be more
to feel special
and loved
and beautiful
but feel undeserving
unworthy
and not good enough
my soul aches
and cries
reaching to soar and thrive

send this darkness to the grave
and arise light