hmmm......part 1

well.....it's been an eventful couple of days to say the least.....

on thursday......bryan called me at work and we talked for a bit.....he was feeling pretty good and he was happy to say that he passed his promotion test that he's been studying for......which was pretty awesome....he told me that he was going to see star wars and then celebrate his victory over the exam by going out and getting wasted after the movie......leave it to bryan to get wasted when he knows he has work in the morining......and then my boss came back from his meeting......he called me into the office and told me to sit down......i could tell that this would be bad......and it was.......first he told me how great an employee i've been and that he would have to let me go.....that they were closing down the agency and moving out of this building and if there were a way to keep me, he would, but he had no other choice but to let me go and things weren't working out the way that he planned......he said that this would be my two week notice and that my last day would be june 3.....i told him that i'll be in fort lauderdale on june 3, so then he pushed my last back to june 10.....

i was just shocked......i was expecting that maybe they would cut back my hours or something......but not actually lay me off......and i was holding myself together in front of my boss......my eyes were watering but i did not cry in front of him......especially when he was going off on how he was pissed and his pay was getting cut and that i shouldn't "boo-hoo" to him......so i didn't......after talking for about 20 minutes about the whole situation......and him telling me that i should start looking for another job......he sent me to lunch......

still in shock i got in my car......and started driving around......and the tears started to flow......i just kept thinking on how much i loved my job......how my boss was the best boss i've ever had......and how i would miss all my clients and co-workers......and then i just couldn't take it......and i pulled over into a business parking lot.......and just cried anc cried......i was so very upset and i needed to talk to someone......so i started going through my phone book and noticed it was 3pm and everyone was at work......my mom was home, but she wasn't picking up......she must have still been sleep (she works nights)......so i called bryan......

with my voice breaking and crying i told bryan what happened......i was so very upset......and crying so much......i couldn't breathe.......i kept apologizing for calling him in the mess that i was in......but i needed someone to talk to and everyone was working.......and bryan understood......i told bryan that my boss gave me this bad news right before lunch.....and how i was mad that he didn't tell at the end of my shift or even on friday.......i was crying and upset......and bryan was great......he just kept telling me that i would be okay......and that there would be other jobs......and i just told him that i wanted him to make me laugh......but hearing me crying and upset......made him upset......he told me, that hearing me cry, that he was going to start crying too......but the best thing bryan said to me......was that i needed to calm down and "go back and finish the day".......and with that he told me that he'd call me after the movie......he didn't feel like celebrating his victory afterall......that made me feel even worse bringing down bryan like that......but he said he'd call me on his way home.......

so after talking to bryan and crying a little bit more.....i took bryan's words to heart.....i wiped away my tears.....put on my brave face and started my drive back to work to "finish the day"......

moments after i arrived back to work......still saddened and exhausted from crying.....new clients walked in.....i greeted them with a smile.....and talked to them for a bit......trying to figure out what they wanted to do......asked them where they've been and what it was like......and they told me stories and we laughed about it.......it was great......i laughed and smiled with them when inside i was heartbroken, realizing how much i was going to miss clients like these......and just talking to clients and being helpful towards them.......i finally ended up booking them a package in cancun for their honeymoon......which was sometime in july......i almost started to tear up again when i realized that i wouldn't even be here......but they were happy......and the left with a great impression and feeling......

by the time i was finished with their booking it was time to go home......i decided that i would go straight to the college to put my name down on the placement list for jobs......and on my way there, the director in atlanta called me for some crew reservations......i told him that i left a little bit early cos i had a bad day......he thought my bad day was due to a client yelling at me or something......so i told him that the company was letting me go......of course he had no idea......and i started to tear up again and my voice was shaky.......and i went over what happened......he was upset.....and it sounded like his voice was starting to shake too......listening to me cry......i apologized to his for breaking down like that on the phone......and we talked for about a half an hour......and he was also upset because he had no idea this was going......he had no idea that they were letting me go......he said he'll call around and get the story......and told me that he didn't wanna lose me......i'm basically his assistant when booking stuff for the flight crews......and with that......he told me he'll call me back after talking to the CEO......

well the placement department wasn't there, so i left a note for the head of travel and tourism to call me back......

and on my way home......the director called me again......and told me that he talked to the CEO and asked if i was willing to go parttime or what not......i told him i would......and then he said not to worry......and then we'd chat later......

more to come on this story........