*Sanctuary*

for my soul to be released
a place to can go without being disturbed
to let my thoughts go free without criticism
a place where to let my guard down
and just let my troubled thoughts flow
letting them be free
out of my mind
releasing the gnawing at my brain
of disturbed thoughts
thoughts that cause me sleepiness
thoughts no one should have
but they are my thoughts
thoughts of a life other than my own
an artificial scenario of what-ifs
a made up life in the confines of head
while i lay in bed awake dreaming
not wanting to die, but not wanting to live either
but instead wake up a different person
desiring a new life, a new identity a new name and face
take me away from this tired life
lock away this darkness
of unimportance
this life has no significance
no one would care if i died
the world would still go on
would anyone even notice?
why doesn’t god take me now?
does he not want me either?
give me light
see? these are the thoughts i have
in my sanctuary