x-mas woes

for christmas during the day, we did the family thing....got 20 of my cousins, 3 aunts, 3 uncles and cousins's kids all over at my house....great big party....hung out....ya know, feeling the love....

well later that night i decide to hit the bar to watch my cousins gig....i usually head up with one of my cousins but they both ditch me....so i head up there on my own....i get there and the place is soooooo dead....there aren't hardly any peeps, so i plopped down on the couch where i usually sit and just watch the crowd come in....

well, i sitting there, being bored out of my mind....bout ready to leave, when the crowd starts poppin....and i'm hitting the ciggy and watch the crowd on the dance floor, when all of a sudden some guy out of nowhere asks me to dance....so i do the nice thing and dance with him....and he's telling me this and that, i'm beautful, i have a nice smile, nice teeth....but what got me out of all the bullshit that came out of his mouth about me and my appearance, is that he told me that i was "prim and prissy"....i don't know what the hell that meant....well the song ends so i decide to sit with him and his two homegirls cos i see my cousin jo-jo sitting over there with them (i had 3 guy cousins, plus my cousin's homeboy ray ray there with me and no girl cousins)....so i go have a seat and my couins jo-jo was gone....he looked at me and told me that he was drunk....the 2 girls told me that they got him drunk with tequilla shots and beer....so one of the girls ask me what i'm drinking....and i looked at jo-jo and told them i wasn't drinking....then the girl grabbed my arm and pulled me to the bar....and ask what i wanted....i go along with her (said what the hell-free drink)....i eye my cousin's homie ray ray on the dance floor (he wasn't dancing, more like walking in a circle)....and he walks over with a beer in each hand...and the girl was all...."i got ray ray soooooo drunk, i bought him 5 hennesey shots"....i was all like "what the hell????"....sooooo ray ray comes over and he carryin to glasses of beers that he had on the dance floor....comes over to me and tell the bartender that he wants 3 shots of hennessey....and he's all like "rolene, i am sooooo drunk"....so me, ray ray and this girl down a shot of hennessey and i get me a sex on the beach....

now ray ray and jo-jo hit the dance floor, leaving me with the guy and the two other girls (the girls trying to get me and my guy cousins drunk)....and i'm drinking my drink, while this guy tries to hit on me....and i am SOOOOOO NOT attracted to him at all....jo-jo comes back and sits down at the table....and i'm giving him the eye to save me, but he's too drunk to even notice....so i'm stuck with this guy....and he's talking me ear off telling me how he "knows" me by the way i act and all this other bullshit and how his last *2* ex-wives did this and did that....totally turning me off....and i'm just nodding not even listening to what he's saying because he's really boring AND offending me at the same time, and i'm just being polite....he asks me why guys find me interesting, and i told him i had no clue....and then he went into this big deal that i'm not living life to it's fullest and that i've never had any fun and just basically being cocky about everything....asking me why i was off over there, sitting by myself and what not, almost getting mad....and THEN after telling me all this about myself the he supposedly "knows", he asks me for my phone number....well, i've been nice the whole night to this loser and this is where i drew the straw....and i told him no....and then he told me that he would really like my phone so we could date....and i said no thanks....i mean he was prolly drunk and i just wasn't interested....by then ray ray comes over and puts his arm around me....and the guy is getting pissed because now he thinks i am with ray ray and that he wasted his time mackin on me....and ray ray is all like nooooo, this is rolene and puts me in a headlock....and gives me a hug....now this guy asks me again for my number so he could take me out....and i told him maybe next time....and he gets all mad and tells me i'm missing an opportunity....and i wasn't hurting at all....and i walk outside to meet up with my cousin samo (who doesn't drink) and have him walk me to my car....(cos samo is HUGE, 6'5" and about 350lbs, no one messes with him, and i was scared the guy would follow me out to my car)

now....what gets me....is these cocky guys i meet up at bars who think they "know" me....and talk and talk and talk....and i like complements just like the other girl, but not when i first meet someone....like this guy was layin it on thick which just turned me off....i mean....yeah, it would have been nice to get a man for christmas, but i didn't want THAT guy....(to bad there wasn't an exchange policy on him)....and i know beggars can't be choosers....but still....i have my standards....and that guy just didn't meet them....

i want a guy who wants to KNOW ME....not assume or speculate about me....and someone who doesn't insult my intelligence....someone who LISTENS as well as talks....i know i shouldn't be picky and maybe i should have gone on a date with the guy, but my innerself was just puking at the thought.... so here's my x-mas....new years eve better be better than this....